Definitely no words can explain how I feel lately. I've been out of words & I dont know what to do anymore. Its almost the end of the year & sobrang bobo ko pa din sa mga bagay. Idk how to fix myself anymore. I am in soooo sooo much pain 😔😭 and the hardest part is no one knows. Cant share how i feel to anyone so id rather keep it myself. Its hard when you cant show people what you really feel and you pretend that you are happy. They're not seeing your tears. They will never understand. Minsan pag naiisip ko umiiyak nalang ako. Kasi minsan nababawasan yung pain kapag umiiyak ako. And i dont know hanggang kailan ganito. Gusto ko lang naman umiyak habang may kayakap. May nakakaintindi kung ano ba talaga nararamdaman ko. Kaso wala. I am so empty.
Sometimes I am thinking what if maglaho nalang ako? Will it help me? Will it help me forget? Matatauhan na ba ko? Maybe.. just maybeeeeee..
Right now my goal is to go far away where I can cry and be wasted. Like ive been hurt a lot of times before but this one is different. 😭 What I am feeling is just so real & sobrang katangahan.
I nvr regret feeling this way kahit masakit ksi i ddnt expect that ill feel this way again.
Everyday mas lalong masakit.
Everyday i always wish na sana umulan. Para may kasabay naman ako umiyak and mafeel ko na di ako nagiisa. x_x
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