did I make the right decision?

Hi blog! How long has it been? Of course magbblog lang naman ako just to share how sad I am today. Palagi naman pag malungkot lang ako nag share ng stories diba.i don't know pero i feel really sad today. Something happened. Andaming nangyari na the past 2 years. I've never been so happy in my life. But how can I get through this Ngayon? Kaya ko pa ba to? Yung situation na kung asan ako Ngayon? I really don't know what I feel but I think I'd probably get help and ask for advices. Hndi ko. Makwento lahat pero iba Yung mga nangyari Ngayon. Sobrang nakakalungkot. Sobrang sakit. Sobrang hndi ko alam kung mababalik pa ba sa dati at 2 yrs palang ang nakalipas. Pero ganito na. Hay. Di ko na ba tlg deserve ang tuloy tuloy na happiness? Or sadyang may problema lang sakin? Nakakaiyak ang sakit sakit na ng ulo ko. It's 6:13am and I am here crying. Sana maget over ko to. Sana matapos na to. Sana mas maging okay Ang lahat.