just a thread.

I just saw this & i'd like to share cz this is just so true. 💞

THIS IS WORTH READING ♡

heartburn.

Woke up this morning and my acid reflux is attacking me again. Cant breathe properly & sobrang hirap sa pakiramdam. 😔 maybe because I ate something sour before sleeping last night.x 😣 hate this feeling. So hard to breathe. So hard lumunok. Nagpapalpitate and all. 😔 hatest feeling ever!! 😭😭😭😭 

What a morning!! 

bad at it.

It's just sad when someone actually lets you feel like you're just no one & it's okay for you to feel bad about it, cause you're just YOU. Not important. Nothing special. No one. 

Its 4am. Random thoughts. Hearts pounding and aching. Hays. I just wanna feel loved..xx  i wanna be someones important person. 

Maybe am just sad that's why i am feeling this again. 

Nyt. Gonna sleep with tears in my eyes. It's okay to cry. 😔

what's on my mind?

Nothing. Just wanna be happy everyday. But why is it getting so lonely? I don't even know. Weird. Forget the things thats making you sad, Jhaymie.♡ 

Nytieeee.x my eyes still itchy. Stupid allergies. Ugh!

Hi Blog :-)

It's been a while again. Everything is goin well lately. :) A lot had happened. We've been in lockdown for almost 3months now because of corona virus. I just hope it will end soon. No classes this year. So it's time for me to focus para mas matuto pa magbasa si zoey. Baka eto na change for us to bond while i'm teaching her at home.x :) Anyway, was just here sa office printing modules. Orders. lol

Anyhow, i'm reading my blog & can't believe how broken I am for the past months. lol. Well I guess I am already coping up & accepting everything that's not meant you know. Everything is goin well right now. Life is just so great. I am receiving blessings. God never fail to show me that we're all so blessed. What makes me sad right now is tito adam's condition. He's really not well right now. :( Ilang araw na nya kami inaabangan to visit him sa makati kaso it's really hard right now because of this pandemic. Idk what to do. he really wants to see us :-(  He's always saying na he's sad and he wanted to see us para sumaya naman sya.

hay lord, bigyan nyo pa po ng chance mabuhay tito adam ko :'( gustong gusto nya pa mabuhay.

ignored.

Should we really need to ignore each other just to end this one up? I can't sleep again.x it is so painful. :'( are you still my bestfriend? I miss you!!

Sinaktan ko na naman sarili ko. Viniew ko fb nya. Nakita ko na naman cover photo nya. Grabe. Bat kaya ganito? Sobrang legit ng pain na nararamdaman ko. Naiiyak na naman ako. :(( matutulog na naman akong malungkot. Gigising ng malungkot. Araw araw nalang malungkot. Sobrang malas ko. Bakit kasi hndi pwde? Bakit bawal? Huhu. Sleep na nga ko :((( 

distance.

Goodmorning blog. It's 5:41am. I aint sleeping yet. Yep ive been awake all night.. im a bit sad you know. Ive been doin my part to distance with him but why do I feel like our closure also comes to an end?:'( i don't want that to happen.x but it's happening na. Nalulungkot talaga ko. Di kami naguusap na talaga. Kasabay naman nun is parang wala na yung closure. Hay. Kailangan ko na ba masanay sa ganito? Its so hard to approach him. Ksi most of the time siniseenzone nya nalang ako after a couple of replies. Yesterday he left me hanging inviting me mag 1v1 then nagquit and then may naginvite na daw ng iba while ako waiting na maglaro kami. Alam mo yun. I know i am not important but why would you do that? :( alam mo naman kung gano ko kaexcited maglaro ulit with you then may naginvite lang sayo na iba nakalimutan mo na may inaya ka pala maglaro. Hays. Nafeel ko talaga na wala lang ako sayo nung time na yun. Di mo manlang naisip na nagaantay ako. Anyway masyado na ko nagooverthink. I just dont wanna talk abt it. Baka sobrang childish na naman. Baka ako lang naman nabobother. Pero i am missing you so much. Ayko tlg may magbago sa friendship but it is definitely changing now. :-( at ang masakit dun e parang okay lang sayo. Or baka sinasadya mo ksi alam mong may feelings ako. Hay nakakaiyak na naman. Pero stay strong self!!!! You got this!! You will be okay!! Pain will be over soon!! :'( you just miss him a lot. 😭😭😭  anyway, sleep na ko. May lakad pa ko later.  Still on lockdown.x hays!