The past few weeks were amazing. I am at my happiest moments. Few stolen moments were so damn crazy.
Sobrang saya ko, i get to spend time with my friends again after a couple of years working and working. Guess what? Ang lakas ko na naman uminom ulit. Ang saya ko. Naranasan ko ulit malasing ng paulit ulit. Funny no? Masaya ko pag nalalasing. Kasi feeling ko, naka escape na naman ako sa lungkot ng mundo.
Someone made me so special this past few weeks and its just crazy. I havent felt so much loved after so many years. Thank you! Na spoil ako for so many things and naging princess treatment ako when we're together. Sobrang saya ko! May mga ganung tao pa din pala talaga.
I also got reunited with my hs classmate where i haven't seen for like 17 years i guess. Can't even believe na we'll spend time talking and magiging ka vibes sa mga trip and all. Again, it was crazy.
But suddenly, things aren't going very well. x hindi ko alam but something changed 😔 the princess treatment happened to be an option and napalitan ng sadness all night. I was crying all night since yesterday. I can't even eat. I can't smile. I was so damn sad. x I don't know what to do.
Akala ko, magiging masaya ko ng matagal pero panandalian lang pala tong happiness na nararamdaman ko. Di pala magtatagal. Is it really that hard to be consistent? Or was it because things arent really not meant to be?
I am so sad. I am starting to miss the happiness i had for the past 4 weeks. Magiging masaya kaya ako ulit? Yung gigising ako ng sobrang excited and saya? What should I do? Should i move on and escape this moment again? 😔 x. Iba yung lungkot na nararamdaman ko. Sobra! I can't even explain kung gano kasakit yung pain sa heart ko ngayon. I thought everything is going well tapos sa isang iglap, ganito na naman.
Why naman ang hirap maging masaya? 😔 Di na ba ako magiging masaya ng matagal? Lagi nalang ba ko magiging malungkot? There's so many questions in my head and i don't even know how to answer sa sobrang dami.
It's just so hard to make decisions. I am not sure about God's plan but one things for sure, he won't give up on me and he'll stay by my side through this tough times.
Nakakaiyak 😔 x literal na sobrang lungkot ko ngayon while typing tong blog ko today. Palagi nalang ako malungkot. May sumagip sakin sa kalungkutan pero bakit panandalian lang? 😔
Kelan po ako magiging masaya ulit? 🥺
Pagod na ata ako a. Focus nalang ulit sa work? Para makalimot. x 💔
