AT THE MOMENT!!!

Literally crying right now. After ako mapagsalitaan ng kapatid ko ng hndi maganda tapos eto na naman. Pagod na ko. Hndi na natapos tapos yung issue na to. Pagod na pagod na pagod na ko. Sana matapos na lahat to. 😭😭😭  gusto ko ng maayos na buhay,yung walang iniisip masyado. May problema man pero mild lang. Hndi ko na maalala kelan ako tumawa ng malakas  puro pain nalang to and worry ang nararamdaman ko 😭😭😭 tapos wala ka pa masabihan na ibang tao ng problema mo😭😭  kelan ko ba mararamdaman na may taong concern at nakakaappreciate sakin 😭😭 i always fail those people who used to care about me 😭😭😭 am i meant to feel this way all the time? Am i really bad enough to deserve all the hatred from them just because of something. I don't know anymore 😭😭😭 I just hope na matapos na lahat ng to. Namimiss ko na maging masaya. Namimiss ko na may kaibigan. Namimiss ko na masayang pamilya. Sana buhay pa si lola. Things is never the same after she left us. Yung pamilya ko sobrang gulo na, wala na akong kaibigan naubos na din. Wala na din partner sa buhay na makakatulong makasurvive. Walang nagcocomfort, walang nakakaintindi, wala na lahat. Pagod na ko😭😭😭😭Si Lord nalang kasama ko, siya nalang yung nakakaintindi sakin. I am  so stressed. I am so depressed. Kung pwede lang may reset button, ginawa ko na 😭😭 matapos lang lahat ng to. Help me, Lord. For nothing is impossible with you,😭 malalampasan ko to lahat kasama ka😭 kakayanin ko to Lahat 😭 pero sana lord pakibilis kasi talagang pagod na ako😭😭

My life is a complete mess!!

Hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko. Pero ang alam ko sobrang hirap na hirap na ko. I am wondering if this is the karma for all of my sins. I am crying at the moment and have no one to talk to. I am lying in bed and nakatago sa comforter ngayon. Sobrang sakit na ng ulo ko. 5 hours na ako umiiyak. I am so struggling right now. 😭 Sobrang hirap!! Kaya ko pa ba? Magiging okay pa ba ako? 😭 Kakapit nalang ba talaga ako sa perfect timing ni Lord sakin? Kelan kaya yun? 😭 Lord, help!!! Kahit para sa 2 anak ko nalang. Wag na sana ako magkasakit. Sana matapos na ang lahat ng to 😭 ang pangit pangit ko na sa sobrang stress ko😭 hindi ko magawang lumabas kasi wala na akong confidence humarap sa tao. Di ko na alam pano ko pa aalagaan sarili ko😭 help me, Lord 🙏😭 help me get over this 🙏😭 

😭😭😭😭 Here's me crying atm. Uploaded it on tiktok.

birthday and zayn's surgery 🙈 2023 so far!

Just some random thoughts. Haven't been using this app for quite some time. So what's up about me. Things has been very great recently. Just celebrate my birthday the other day and i am so grateful, Lord. Thank you!!

Well just wanted to set my goal this year! First, i wanted to make sure that i will lose weight!! This has been my struggle for the past 10 years and I wanted it to happen this year!!! 

This was me on my birthday. Cooked dinner and ordered pizza lang since i have work that night! 😆

So one of the reason why di na kami lumabas is because Zayn got into an accident 2 days before my birthday. 😑

So Zoey and Zayn were playing that night and i heard a very loud bump na alam ko na nauntog na si zayn not knowing na super bleeding pala and tumama pala sya sa pinakabato ng slidng window namin. So here's what it looks like.

So grabe nagpunta kami sa commonwealth gen hospital saying they don't have a surgeon so we need to admit not sure when matatahi ulo ni zayn so lumipat kami sa feu. Same thing din. Grabe sila. Huehue kahit emergency na walang doctor. Wtf. 

So sa bernadino hospital lang pala kami mauuwi. We waited for like 3 hours ata hanggang sa tinahi na si zayn. 3 people were struggling para lang hawakan sya since it' painful talaga huhu and i was there to calm him down. 😢 6 stitches and successfull naman. Good thing na hndi sya nagsuka, or nahilo, nahimatay and seizure after mauntog so hndi na sya na ct scan but it was really a nightmare!

After the minor surgery, we went to jollibee as he's very hungry na talaga that time since he can't even drink aftr ng mangyari kasi bawal.

Super sleepy na sya nyan and bangag kakasigaw and kakalaban habang tinatahi sya so i'm so proud of my baby!!! Sobrang strong!!! Huhuhu 😢😢 thank you,Lord!!

Lesson Learned talaga. Super kulit lang talaga ni zayn 😑😑

So he's still in recovery, taking meds and all but was so glad to see na super kulit na nya ulit kahit naka bandage. 🤦🤦

Me working at home while taking good care of him 💋💋

Anyway that's it so far. 😑 HAHAHAHA im working now while blogging so. Yeah.