ignored.

Should we really need to ignore each other just to end this one up? I can't sleep again.x it is so painful. :'( are you still my bestfriend? I miss you!!

Sinaktan ko na naman sarili ko. Viniew ko fb nya. Nakita ko na naman cover photo nya. Grabe. Bat kaya ganito? Sobrang legit ng pain na nararamdaman ko. Naiiyak na naman ako. :(( matutulog na naman akong malungkot. Gigising ng malungkot. Araw araw nalang malungkot. Sobrang malas ko. Bakit kasi hndi pwde? Bakit bawal? Huhu. Sleep na nga ko :((( 

distance.

Goodmorning blog. It's 5:41am. I aint sleeping yet. Yep ive been awake all night.. im a bit sad you know. Ive been doin my part to distance with him but why do I feel like our closure also comes to an end?:'( i don't want that to happen.x but it's happening na. Nalulungkot talaga ko. Di kami naguusap na talaga. Kasabay naman nun is parang wala na yung closure. Hay. Kailangan ko na ba masanay sa ganito? Its so hard to approach him. Ksi most of the time siniseenzone nya nalang ako after a couple of replies. Yesterday he left me hanging inviting me mag 1v1 then nagquit and then may naginvite na daw ng iba while ako waiting na maglaro kami. Alam mo yun. I know i am not important but why would you do that? :( alam mo naman kung gano ko kaexcited maglaro ulit with you then may naginvite lang sayo na iba nakalimutan mo na may inaya ka pala maglaro. Hays. Nafeel ko talaga na wala lang ako sayo nung time na yun. Di mo manlang naisip na nagaantay ako. Anyway masyado na ko nagooverthink. I just dont wanna talk abt it. Baka sobrang childish na naman. Baka ako lang naman nabobother. Pero i am missing you so much. Ayko tlg may magbago sa friendship but it is definitely changing now. :-( at ang masakit dun e parang okay lang sayo. Or baka sinasadya mo ksi alam mong may feelings ako. Hay nakakaiyak na naman. Pero stay strong self!!!! You got this!! You will be okay!! Pain will be over soon!! :'( you just miss him a lot. 😭😭😭  anyway, sleep na ko. May lakad pa ko later.  Still on lockdown.x hays!